Thursday, January 31, 2008

1000 lies to dwell in

and yes,
its special... the emptiness around;
with a content heart - within!
this music, once again resurrects me,
dragging me - here & there -
swinging between the lanes!

1000 lies - to dwell in;
1 truth to live in;

and today here I am!
don't know - if I'm living or dwelling!

& of course- there's you!

मैले बोल्ने नबुझिने कुरा

सपनाका कुरा, अनि
पुनर्संरचनाका कुरा
आंखा अगाडीको तरल दृष्य,
खोज्दै हिडेको ‘नदेखिने कुरा’!

शब्द शब्द गुन्जन्छ
मानसपटलको पर्दामा,
अर्थ की अनर्थ, साचो की झुठ,
मैले बोल्ने ‘नबुझिने कुरा’!

घुम्दा घुम्दै अन्तै पुग्ने
लरबराउने पाईलाबीच,
बिराइनुमै खुसि देख्ने
मेरो प्रयासको ‘पट्यारिलो कुरा’!

बुझाइ र भोगाइ बीच
पल पल जीउनु कति सरल,
पजल जीवन गजल मान्ने
मैले ठानेको ‘नमानीने कुरा’!

कोरी बस्नु कता कता
लेख्न जान्नु कता कता,
ढांटि ढांटि तिम्रो यादमा
मेरो नीद हराएको कुरा!

बुझाए जस्तो गर्दै गर
स्विकारोक्ती मेरो पनि,
मेरो ध्यान अन्त नभै
तिम्रो आंखामा गएको कुरा!

आजको कुरा, हिजोको कुरा!
कलमले के लेख्ला, त्यो अमुर्त कुरा
म के भनुंला, त्यो नबुझिने कुरा
कसले के सुन्ला, कसले के बुझ्ला
मैल भन्न चाही चाहि, लुकाएको कुरा!
[अन्तिम ४ लाईन मैले तेतिबेलै पोष्ट गरेको थिए। बाकी चाही पछि गर्छु भन्ने सोचेर]

यो खेस्रा मैले धैरै अघि कोरेको थिएँ, त्यो बेलाको मेरो डायरी पल्टाउँदै जांदा भेटियो, र आज - एउटा खास अवसर पनि परेकोले यहिँ राखिदेको छु।

Monday, January 28, 2008

once again

once again,
wind turned into breeze,
once again,
i saw a rainbow, in the droplet

once again,
i heard the song,
do u remember? the hum!
we did it together...

and today! it reflected like a mirror,
I didn't notice -
those crazy people...
and I don't care at all.
and when i recall all that, I feel totally mesmerized - I cant think of a logic. Do you recall what I said -  we should fight more! This time, its different, & I feel different, its different - indeed.
my fear! yes dear! i fear of the fear!


its all a bunch of lies
that we grow - within ourselves,
and you talk of freedom,
and i talk of freedom!

See, we are free,
we are free to think of ourselves with our-selves!
we are free to dream of ourselves in chain!

This dust, all over the road really irritates me,
& the irony! I can't avoid it!
See I'm free!

Friday, January 25, 2008

home - michael buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Wednesday, January 23, 2008


"The government decided to roll back the petroleum price hike following angry street protests Wednesday.
Emerging from the meeting, Industry, Commerce and Supplies minister Shyam Sundar Gupta said the government has decided to roll back the price hike taking into account the problems caused by it to ordinary citizens.
- NepalNews

I don't know why these problems couldn't be assessed before the decision was made.
Nevertheless, its a good news that the price hike has been withdrawn.

BTW, the road were more black(er) when I returned. AHHH, the dust & fume of that carbon.

इतिश्री स्कन्दपुराणे माघमहात्म्य कुमार-अगस्त्य संवादे, नेपाल मुल्यवृद्धि विषये द्वित्तियध्याय!

BLACK Wednesday - early morning in Ktm

Bhatbhateni 1Bhatbhateni 2
Bhatbhateni 3
Could escape within a nick of time, early this morning (8am) while riding to office. These are the scenes near Bhatbhateni.

I can't judge things, right or wrong, I don't know what is this price hike for - just after the code of conduct for CA was ruled out (all public decisions are halted in this period, isn't it?); I don't know what these people are smiling at;  and why are the small school kids carrying bricks in their bags while participating in the demonstration.

[the BLACK in the title means the color of the road, nothing else]

Wednesday, January 16, 2008


"I see myself forgotten,
like those old anchors,
here, I love you,
and the horizon hides you in vain;
I still pine for you,
among these cold things."
"cold nights cant be a barrier,
neither my boring words will!
this distance wont be a barrier,
neither my lost words will!!"
these lonely nights cant be a barrier,
neither my boring words will!
this distance wont be a barrier,
neither the winter's chill!!
[v1.1.0.0 Cipher's interpretation]
Dreams fold & unfold,
dream hold & unhold,
dream told & untold,
the night falls & re-falls,
the softness stirs in the ears
shimmers in the eyes,
hurls down the slopes & stings the heart,
jerking a piece out,
and there lies the sunny day,
revolving yellow cars on the roads,
and you feed on sticky spaghetti
and curl and uncurl and furl and unfurl bellow the tough quilt,
shoving hands between the folded knees
and on the lap of the pillow
and your nokia gadget stroking 7 8; a sizzling hiss - good morning!!
[get up! You Sisyphus]

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

watched this movie last night.
not as adventurous/action-packed as I had expected, but the concept was interesting; & specially the context of the movie: only one man alive in the entire city! no matter how traumatic the situation might be. The uprooted city & its deserted livelihood.

...and now, when I think of it from a slight different angle, I can imagine (may be I can't imagine this) how terrible it would be to be all alone: not for a day, not for a week, but for 1000 days,or even more... OHH!
this evening, in the office, we were discussing on someone's endurance on staying alone, how far can you go this race : staying alone. just think, how far can you go with this!
boredom, boredom, boredom and would there come a limit of boredom itself? would you be able to get over it some day? or rather would you be able to know yourself and get into your own self? would you start enjoying?
hmmm, out of my box : I cant even stay alone at home whole day some times.

Samyak said its suffocating, and I realized, yes, indeed it was.

back to the movie, Will Smith's one man show! its good though.
& i wonder why didn't that compound 6 cured Sam while it cured a rat and later also a human? [the last injection that he gave to Sam]

Wish-list for 2008 [..belated]

- Meet deadlines more happily :D; Be in time [see, this post is already late to become a wish-list]
- Finish RD Thesis & Project Paper and start for English Thesis
- Buy Canon EOS400D
- Post more regularly
- Create some oil paintings, make some music
- Most importantly, ...!

Wishes no more on the list
- Search for jobs
- Stop loosing hair, [there's not much hair to lose]

[Inspired by UnfoldingReverie, some points are exactly imitated]

Sunday, January 13, 2008

essence of survival

Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster then the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning a lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death.

It doesn't matter whether you are a lion or a gazelle...... when the sun comes up, you'd better be running.


where are you now?

- A map & compass are completely useless until you know the 5th point of the compass - Where are you Now.

Friday, January 04, 2008

touching the fifth year

... while posting the last post, I just happened to see the blog archive links, and there was a list of five years, 2004 through 2008. A noticeable list of years & five of them.

Although its very rare that I write :-) but I'm glad that its been 5 years since I'm here in this scene!
Endured, in spite of so many upheavals, blues and greens. 

Thanks to all who have kept this alive!
[Lets hope this will get more boring in upcoming days...]

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

five point someone, the alchemist

just finished this novel - Five Point Someone by Chetan Bhagat. Took me few days with few hours a day, its a fun read; I liked it. The title seems odd, but it becomes meaningful with the introduction of the context.
His second novel - "one night at the call center" was also fun.

& Thanks to this load-shedding, it gives me time to read. Sometimes I wish the electricity never came, for couple of hours more, but cant be that way... :)

I read The Alchemist before this. Had heard of this long ago, but never had a chance.
Its a hyped one, I think, as I didn't find it as impressive as I had expected. A simple story of a guy following his dreams. Not bad though.

And this time, thanks to the warm sun, specially in the Saturdays & Sundays, when its irresistible to stay inside. (Obviously I miss lots of work while I stay in the Sun; & this is one of the reasons for my dangling deadlines) But still, its fine.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

to ChanguNarayan

On the way We stopped to rest on the way, looking towards south, through a dense 'tuwalo'

Kamala & her friend Kamala & her friend (I don't remember her name)

Hukka Mero Dalle Dalle Hukka Mero Dalle Dalle

ChanguNarayan Temple ChanguNarayan Temple.

I felt glad for the choice I made: a short trip on bike, rather than a movie show. The return trip was even better, a rough route to Sallaghari through Duwakot. I had been there few years back. Then, we had taken the route, down from Changu through pine trees and the village... towards Duwakot.
This time we were on a bike, ... I loved the smooth ride, clean road (at least without the smoky vehicles), full of life all around, no dust & smoke and of course the closeness with nature.

so called New Year

I had no plans for the new year celebration... though almost instantly, guys proposed a plan for Thamel visit, in the eve.
And we went, but uhh, nothing looked like the celebration, and wait, what is the celebration for? New Year?
I still don't like that crowd, drunk crowd (almost 90%).
Personally, I take this just as a technical new year!

I didnt like the Thai rice noodles, I don't remember what it was called. And I also didn't like you either B**, you should be able to express things in more proper way, and when you are not drunk.

I had to sneak out before the countdown began, I should think of a better plans next time.

P.S. Thamel sucks!